day #4

Well today is my 4th day and 3rd workout so far so good. i know that sounds crazy but hey I am HAPPY with each day. 1 meal @ a time, 1 day @ a time is my motto. I feel good so far. Im sore as hell and esp my back but no pain so gain. I hope to lose 3 lbs this week but will be extremely happy with 2 lbs. I haven't been drinking all the water that I should so I am going to have to do better with that, my goal is 150fl oz per day. I have only been drinking like 100 or so tha needs improvement. I gotta go get prepared to go to the gym I need some new tunes on my ipod. check in later.

6.1.10

I started a new diet/exercise plan and today was my first day back in the gym in a lllllooooonnnnggg time..I actually feel good. It kicked my a$$ but I know that if I keep at it I will be successful. I am the heaviest that I have EVER been. I weighed in today at a whopping 305 lbs. I am on the Jillian Micheals Winning by Losing plan. Its 12 weeks and it worked well for me in the past...Wish me luck

Fasting...

SO I SUCK! I know I fell of the wagon in a week! that is AWFUL! but i am back here to blog...
I decided I needed to fast. I have been blessed with so many wonderful gifts that I felt I should offer something back so I decided to only drink and eat fruits and veggies. Today is day#2 and it's early and I am prayerful that I will make it through. I think sometimes we have to give up somethings in order to let other things come into our lives. I think this will also help me detox and I need that. I have been feeling heavy and weighted lately emotionally, mentally and physically. Its the beginning of a new season so I need a change.

I have a friend going through some serious family transitions and I really want them to be comforted through this exprience. They are beautiful people inside and out.

One of a fav artist is dropped a new album today I got go pick it up and study...later

i fell off the wagon

So ok last week was my 30th B-day and I didn't make it to WW i was so busy with b-day festivites and I thought that I could just go on sat well I over sleep. Now tomorrow is a weigh-in day and I am screwed like we ate out all week last week. I have to STOP letting little things sabotage me. I have to pick myself back up but on my bodybugg and get moving. FI brought me a WII for my B-day but I don't get it until tomorrow. I have to workout at least 3 x per week.... I have to just keep moving. My health is at stake here!!!!!

Starting tomorrow I will count my calories/pts, wear my bodybugg, and journal and I will workout in the morning. I am going to put my Ipod on the charger tonite!!!!! God please help me before I destroy myself!!!

In 1 week...

I turn 30 years old. As I reflect back I wonder where has the time gone. I remember just graduating from high school. It seems like just yesterday. I feel so blessed to have accomplished what I have in the time that I have but in the same token I also feel as if there are so many things that I have not done. I am very goal-oriented and I am super ambitious and I LOVE that about myself but it's a gift and a curse.

I hope to live to see 30 b/c I am so EXCITED for what the future holds yet I am afraid all at the same time! I feel like it's time out for games. I am about to get my grown woman on yall. I am about to be a WIFE (holy shit) I always thought about it and wanted to be but I see it in my near future....(my wedding is in ~9mths YIKES) I hope to also become a mother in a 3o's and I want travel more and see different countries and cultures.. I will finally complete my education (God willing) and before I turn 31 I will CONQUER this weight loss!

Say goodbye to the 20's and HELLO to the 30's! I can't wait to see what's in store!!!!

Gotta go to class! First day of OB Clinicals!

Weigh in #2

I had my weigh-in today and I gained ONE POUND! Needless to say I was DISAPPOINTED! But I can't fall down I have to pick myself up and keep on trying. I did not journal at all last week that was problem #1. Problem #2 I didn't work out either so really I know that I didn't give 100% so I can only blame myself. The goal for next week is 4lbs so wish me luck! Realistically I will be happy with 2 but I will be ambitous b/c I know that I can do this!!!!

I BELEIVE IN MYSELF!!!!!!

Scared shitless

i am so afraid... i have started looking for the bridesmaid dresses for my wedding and first off bridal salon's sales staff can be busy.. i mean... can i have some space to breath.... but besides that i don't like looking only at plus sized dresses it sucks somewhat... really... i personally feel like i have time to lose the weight but i don't want to wait too long and can't get the dress that i really want to have....i never pictured this like this so it kind of make me a bit sad that i have gained all this weight back!!! and then..... i have't worked out this week or journaled this week...either... i have still been watching my diet just not writing it down.

i feel like 9 months is enough time to lose the weight but i have to order a dress by april so my plan is to start looking now and i won't order anything until then and if no when i lose weight it will be easier to adjust down rather than up and i get an awesome reception dress anyway! so that makes me feel better.

well i'm off to studying!